DR.....I had some dreams after my wife passed also.
We were in a mountain restaurant and my wife got up to use the bathroom. The bathroom was down a hallway so I watched here walk away. I waited a few minutes and the I heard a commotion down that hallway. After several minutes went by I got up and asked the bartender where my wife was and what the commotion was. He said that some guys had come and taken my wife away. I became very panicked at that point. I used my phone to call the police for help. Just then my second line rang and it was my wife and she proceeded to tell me.........that she couldn't be there anymore. It was to hard and to much to handle. She said that she loved me but it was time for her to go.
I woke up and surprisingly remembered so much about that dream but wasn't sure how to analyze it.
I came to the conclusion that she was just saying how tired and broken she was from all the treatment from her cancer. It had been a long hard battle and she was done and was at peace with letting go so me and the kids didn't have to see her go through anymore pain and suffering. I'm grateful for that dream so I could begin to heal myself.
There have been other dreams but none as clear as that one.
Stay strong DR. It can be a rough road at times but It will get better. You are still in the baby stages of you grief.
I always enjoy reading your shenanigans posts. I can relate to a lot of things you write about.